Sabah discussion..

Hari nih kat ofis dok bncg psl trip g sabah nxt month...bncg dgn dak2 ofis n sorg bdk bkn bdk ofis(kwn kpd bdk2 ofis nih) gune skype...nk decide psl bape ari nk sewa kete...n tempat2 ape je kite nak pegi...smbil 2 tu ralit gak menyinggah blog2 org yg da pegi sabah utk reference...mmg wat lg xsabar nk g sabah bile tgk blog2 org nih...aku tye gak kakak spupu aku coz die da byk kali g sabah...tp xreply lg...well tye pun kt fb..so kena tgu org tuh on9 dulu ler gamaknyer...huhu...da no fon die xde...tpaksela tye kt fb...itu pun sib baik ade add kt fb...hahaha....

Excited weh nk g sabah...xsabarnyer...

Ok gtg...nk g karoks ngn bff...daaa...

Monday Bluess......

Mengantuk thp gaban arinih kt ofis...ssh benar nk bukak mate...nih la bahana tido lmbt smlm sbb ari ahad da terlebih tido...da minum nescafe pun xjln gak...lunch time td igt nk tdo...tp Mr. Kelvin(project manager) mintak deployment files & guideline la plak...dah aku buat bende tuh pastu tgl lg 1/2 jam jer lunch nk abis...mmg xsempat ar aku nk tdo....waaaaa.....

Disebabkan ngantuk aku mls giler wat keje...wahahhaha..
Tapi bkn ade keje sgt pun...sume aku da handover kat ija dgn kenneth da..huhu...
so disebabkan xde keje...lg la ngntuk dier berganda2....huhu...

Hari yg sia sia...

From my last post... Aku bknnyer pegi melawat tuk sedara aku wat kali terakhir...tp aku telah menidurkan diri aku smp la 10 min yg lalu...damn...kenapela aku kuat tido sgt nih...lembabla otak aku cmnih..(ceh bru tau ker...td time tdo xigt dunia...siap mls nk bgn lg =P)...plus..nape mak aku xkejut aku utk ikut die g kenduri tahlil...biasenye mak aku xleh klau aku xikut die g kenduri2 nih...musykil beta....ke mlm nih xde kenduri tahlil?esk bru ade kot...still nape mak aku xajak aku pegi utk tunjuk muka n give my last respect  to my tuk sedare...hurmmm..


xtaula ape mak aku pk tuh...lupe kot aku tdo kt bilik tingkat atas nih...maybe byk mak aku pk tuh sbb tuk sedara tuh rapat juga ngn family aku...n die selalu senyum jer...n aku still igt muka die sgt bersih n suci jer..n bile die senyum kat aku..trus hati rs sejuk jer...sng jer nk bertegur sapa...rs bahagia jer...


tuk sedara aku tu juga di akhir2 hidup die sgtlah rajin puase sunat...ari2 aku rase...n ari2 gak g surau or masjid utk smbhyg....aku rse dia adalah slh seorg penghuni syurga nnt...insyallah...


tp mmg rse sia2 jer hari aku arinih....tau td aku g CM pun ade gak paedah....
damn bru teringat....aku xbuat medical checkup lg utk kerja baru aku...haiyaa....bile plak aku nak buat nih...2 Julai da nk start da....


parah...


maybe aku try kol klinik tuh utk tye die bukak smpai kul baper...maybe aku bole try pegi lps ofis hr....yes...kena set reminder nih....

Terkilan & sedih...

Aku nk pegi CM.... Annexe Galler...ade KLAB...ade lejen press...da start da pun...nk jmp writer2 lejen press...

TAPI.....

Atuk sedare aku baru meninggal pg td...innalillah....

So..xkan aku nk selfish..even ade gak rase terkilan...tp sedih bcoz pemergian tuk sedare tu pun ade....
So i choose family...so what...event camtuh akan ade lg kan...so better luck next time i hope...

A bestfren day out...and a sad memory...

Hai..assalamualaikum...

Td bru blk dr lepak dgn one of my best fren..emmy...
Slalu klau lepak mst g karok or tgk wyg...this time ktorg just g mkn kt old town white coffee kt sri rampai...then ktorg just borak jer...catching up...reminiscing old memory...it was fun...we update each other with our life story...sgt best rsnyer lame da xbuat cmtuh ngn kwn2...

Suddenly i miss my ex bff...she used to be my real bff...n i miss her...i miss lepak with her...miss ngadu dgn die...i nvr thought our frenship will end like this...now even though we've meet again n we become friends again...but rs die da xsame....its like ade jurang yg sgt besar between us...n i miss her badly...i miss our friendship...i miss u fiza..i miss us..if only i can turn back time...i will lower my ego n give in like i always do...

I think its like 'Bride Wars' film...aku Emma Allen (Anne Hathaway) and fiza was Olivia 'Liv' Lerner (Kate Hudson).but the different is...ktorg bkn gaduh sbb tarikh kawen ktorg same n tmpt pun same...and at the end of the story, they become bff back...but she n me...we are not becoming frens again...we hv become an acquaintance...n its sad...i really dont know how get close to u back fiza...n u r married now..n live outside kl...i really dont have clue how to bring us close again..or is it i still ego...i don't know...

I miss u fiza...

Mlm utk bfikir...

Mlm nih mcm2 bmain kt kepala nih...mcm2 bende pk...semua bpunca lps bce buku kt kinokiniya klcc...
Buku tu tajuk die klau xsilap "sembang jalanan:mencari syurga yg hilang"...cerita psl seorg free-thinker...org yg percaya Allah itu wujud...tp xpercaya pd agama...

Buku tu nipis jer...novel2 cinta yg slalu aku bce lg tebal...tp buku nipis tuh da wat aku berfikir tanpa henti mlm nih...

Adekah aku seorg free-thinker tanpa aku sedari??

Kemungkinan yg sgt menakutkan.....

Sekarang kepala aku berat...mate aku pun berat...tp..aku perlu buat sesuatu dulu utk membuang syak wasangka dlm diri aku kepada diri aku sendiri....aku rase aku perlu solat...aku perlu solat taubat...
Ya Allah...jgnla ko jauhkan aku dari hidayah-Mu Ya Rabb...

Skandal??

Disebabkan sy tdo kul 4pg td...arinih sy suda tlajak lahhh...so im taking mc... =P
Td ingat nak pegi je ofis..sbb ade keje nk kena setel..then whatsapp ofismate nk suh amikkn file then igt nk shoot pegi client ofis..kt client ofis xkisah msk lmbt sbb attendance tulis sendiri..so phm2 laa..hahah..back to story..rupe2nyer ofismate i tu pun tlajak jugak..hahah..then die pun mc...so trus i pun rs nk mc gak...wahahahaa...so pengaruh rakan sebaya tuh sgt tinggi ok...
Beside sbnrnyer terpikir nk pegi ofis bru nnt..nk amik offer letter...so can make use this of this situasion la kan..hihi..
And another reason is my skandal da nak terbang ke sarawak esk...so arinih bole la spend time together gether...bole noty2 sket...bley manja2...nnt die da pegi xde org da nk manja2... =(
Smlm da majuk sket ngn die sbb bape kali da janji nk jmp asyik cancel jer...then arinih die kate nk jmp kwn2 die for the last time...then i was like...bile plak ko nk jmp aku nihhh???arrghhh stress jab smlm...pastu majuk...tp dlm kul 12 cmtu smlm...da msk bilik...rs cm xfair plak mrh die cmtuh...bley je jmp lps or before die jmp kwn2 die tuh...aku lak emo lbh2 apesal ntah xtau...skandal je pun...bkn bf..klau bf lain  citerlaa...so msg la die blk n say sorry..die pn sorry gak..sbb pas i majuk tuh die cm mrh gak n mls nk lyn aku...huhu..sweet kann...die nak gak say sorry even bkn slh die punn....=P *tgn ke bahu*

So ptg nih will spend it with my skandal...pas die g sarawak da xjd skandal da...hahah....xbest ar skandal jauh2 kan...so maybe will be fren jela pasnih...will tell him that today...die xtau lg i da decide cmtuh..huhu...

Orait...wow..can't believe I've posted second post already...seems like I'll be dedicated to this blog...haha..

Till next post... Daa..

My first ever post..n its nearly 4am

Yeay...im finally have the courage to create a blog n straight away post something...
Maybe its becoz of loneliness or bcoz its 15 minutes to 4 am..or i just want to express my feeling without anybody that i know judging me critics me or wat ever.i just want a space where i can express myself without anybody knew me...bcoz i got a feeling i will rambling about a lot of stuff..which i don't know if it good or bad..n maybe this blog will be mellow blog where i will constantly talk about myself...how i hate the day..how i feel lonely...how i hate man but the same time i need them..how annoying i am..how i survive my everyday life...basicly how i lived my life...n maybe i will write in english or malay..or both..n who care if my grammar is ke laut..i dont give a damn...call me org putih celup...english wannabe or watever...i just dont care... Peace... =D

So that it now...its 7 minutes to 4am..n i think i should sleep now coz tomorrow kena hntr ayah dialisis which i hv to get up early which i hate wake up early...n then need to siap n go to work...yup.. currently i still with dearest DFS company D*******T S****M BERHAD... =P
Well not for long...end of this month is going to be my last day..ive got a better offer..with a lot of malay guys...hehehe.*gelak gatal*hahaha

Till next post...daa~~